Well, as I type this, I am sitting here just anxiously awaiting the arrival of our first little one. Everyone is right when they tell you that the first 36 weeks go by quickly, and then the last 4 weeks drag on for a year.
Everything is packed, cleaned, decluttered, restocked, and ready to go. And now we just walk and wait, walk and wait; hanging on every pain or contraction hoping that labor is just around the corner.
It’s interesting…there are so many things in pregnancy that are either completely out of your control OR there are an endless amount of options to choose from and the choice is totally yours.
As I sit anxiously awaiting our son’s birth, I am reminded as I have been over and over again in our pregnancy, that I am completely out of control as to how the birth story will unfold. The timing, his health, my health, all of it. I pray and I surrender, and then I start all over again.
One thing that never crossed my mind to pray for was the names of our children. There are literally endless options as to what to name your child these days and it’s totally up to you and your spouse what you choose. I had a list of names pre-pregnancy that I had on my phone and have always loved, and then when we became pregnant, together, my husband and I added to and subtracted from the list.
Picking a name can be quite comical with two opinionated spouses and with two people that grew up knowing different people. My husband might suggest a name, and then I would say, “no way! I knew a guy…” or vise versa.
Eventually we narrowed it down to a list of about 5 names. There was one name in particular that we were leaning towards for a long time. I loved and still love the name, but something just didn’t feel “right” with it. Thats when it dawned on me…HELLO. Why have we not even prayed about this decision? Choosing a name may sound trivial to pray about, but we desire for the Lord to be in and about everything we do in this life. So I started to pray, asking God to show us what the name of our child should be.
I’m also one of those people who deeply desired for the name we chose to have significant meaning to it. I want it to be something our child can forever own and walk in as a reminder of who they are… almost like a blessing spoken over their lives.
Before Braden and I discussed names, I had a list of names that have had significant impact on my faith or the faith of others that I would love to use one day. The list included names from parents, grandparents, disciplers, to John Piper, John Calvin, Jim & Elisabeth Elliot, biblical characters, and so on. After talking names with Braden, most of the names were eliminated and we moved on.
After several weeks of sitting on one name (nearly decided at that point) we kept praying about what the name of our son should be. Braden and I were driving in the car and started to discuss it again. I asked how he was feeling about the name, and for the first time in weeks it wasn’t an “I think that’s the name” answer. Out of nowhere, he said, “I don’t know, I really love the name Elliot.”
My jaw dropped. I was in shock. Elliot was one of my favorite names and had been on “my list” forever. I thought we had discussed that months ago and Braden eliminated it. Yet, Braden never even remembers talking about that name and it just kinda “came to him” from thin air. Except, it was no coincidence to me that shortly after we actually decided to include the Lord in this decision (yikes lol), that he unified and led our hearts and gave Braden the name Elliot– a name that had been on my heart for a long time. GOD IS COOL.
So after a little more discussion, that was it. We were decided. Elliot James was going to be our son’s name. Elliot named after Jim & Elisabeth Elliot, missionaries who devoted their entire lives for the sake of the gospel and have challenged both of us in our faith in countless ways. (If you don’t know their story, you can read a little more here and here.) AND the meaning of the name Elliot is: the Lord is my God. James after his daddy’s middle name, which is also a Wilson family name.
Elliot James Wilson, we pray that as you grow, you would be a man who knows who his God is. That the false gods of this world wouldn’t rule over your heart, but that you would know, say, and live with certainty that the Lord is your God. That you would be a man who is so deeply compelled by the love of Jesus, that you would love nothing more than to devote your entire life to boldly sharing the gospel with others– in whatever facet or place the Lord has for you. We pray that the Lord will use you to leave a legacy of faith in the Wilson family for generations to come.
We love you little guy and can’t wait to meet you!