Sometimes I found myself wondering this; who is Brooke Wilson?
About 3 months ago everything about my life changed. Within two weeks, the life that I knew was totally flipped upside down. I graduated college (go pokes), got married, moved to a brand new city, and started my first ever big girl job. Although these changes were great and exciting things, I found myself restless and confused.
“Tulsa, Oklahoma? But God, Texas has my heart and I know no one here.”
“Orthodontist Assistant? I’m giving kids braces? But God, I have no idea what I’m doing.”
“Med-school wife? But God, this is a little harder than I thought.”
I wrestled with all of these thoughts and more (as if God had gotten something wrong…HA). There have been times in the past few months where it felt like I was living someone else’s life, like God had things mixed up. Everything that I had ever known was different. The life I knew as Brooke Ward for 21 years was no longer. I had a whole new life and in a fact a whole new name. I found myself thinking, “Okay, God…so who is this Brooke Wilson anyways? Are you sure this is right?”
Like always, in times of struggle and isolation, the Lord drew me nearer and spoke.
“Brooke, you are my Daughter, my Beloved; your identity and purpose are found in ME. Trust me.”
Through the grace of God and the lenses of the Holy Spirit, I have found rest, purpose, and peace. I still live in Oklahoma, I am still an Orthodontist assistant, and I am still married to a medical school student. The only thing that has changed is my heart. I was reminded that my identity is not found it what I do or where I am, my identity is found in Christ alone. What great opportunities I have right where I am at to love others and to build the Kingdom. What many blessings I have to be thankful for (especially my incredible, hard working husband). What a time to know and experience God in a whole new way.
We all face new seasons and unforeseen situations. Sometimes it feels like God has gotten it all wrong; this life we are living is not what we had planned. Instead of tirelessly fighting to find a way out, let’s embrace the new seasons head on. God wants to walk with us through this new season, teach us new things, and use us in new ways. He is Sustainer. Provider. Sovereign King. Let’s walk boldly and live fully in these new and unanticipated seasons, trusting God and maximizing every moment he allows.
I am so humbled that God chose me to bear the name of Jesus. Thank you Lord for my new life as a child of God and thank you for the new life ahead that you have planned for me as Brooke Wilson.
“And my God will meet all your needs according the the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus” -Philippians 4:19
“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. They will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought
and never fails to bear fruit.” -Jeremiah 17: 7-8